Yea, so the day started off good.......I didn't get accepted into the marching band. But I have an option to be on the reserve list and they could call at any time if someone drops out. But I could be at the bottom of that list for all I know. But I have been thinking about college and my future a lot. Maybe I want to take it easy my first year. But my mom is insisting on me being on the reserve list because she says that I have come so far already. But I guess I just don't know if its for me. Right now I don't know what I want or what I want to do. But I do know that I don't want someone pushing into doing things that I don't want to do. I'm tired of surrending to other people. I mean yea I do or did want to do it, but I have to think about my future as well. I would have practice every night, could I keep up with my classes? I don't even have a sax so if they did call me like the day before camp, what would I do? But my mom is like, well you said that people who don't do it their first year wont ever do it. Yea, but I'm different, I will go out again next year. Take the Mackinac Honor Guard, I didn't get in my first year but I did it the next year. But college is a big step for me and I want to be in control. I'm so confused and turned around. augh!!!!!!!!!!!




On a lighter note, I got my voters registration card today and I got to leave work an hour early.